Accident

Met with an accident early this morning when I'm on my way to work. And it happened in front of a traffic police! He's directing the traffic, and the car in front of me break suddenly, i manage to break in time, but the car behind me banged into me. Sigh. Luckily there's not much damage to my car. Only the number plate is broken, and a few scratches here and there. Not good, not good. No luck these few days. Should go do something about it. My broken number plate was left in the crime scene (sounds like CSI, haha), and I'm scared the police might do something about it. But with the heavy traffic on that road, I doubt it's still in one piece. Just hope everything will be alright later. I'm in no mood to do anything right now.

Earth quake in KL

This is the first time this country can feel actually feel the quake. I used to think that Malaysia is a very fortunate place, where we are protected from a lot of natural disasters, coz we are in the middle of the region, surrounded by other countries. But after Monday's hit, I don't quite think like that anymore. The earth had moved. This will affect our land. I do not feel anything that day, as I was out having supper. When I'm back I saw a lot of people outside the road, and I wondered what had happened. It had never crossed my mind that there would be an earth quake. I got such a shock when I read the news the next day. I pity people in Indonesia. They live in constant fear. You wouldn't know when the next one will hit. It might be next week, next month or 10 years later. Who knows? We can't control mother nature. There must be explamations behind all these incidents, it's just that we humans are not sensitive enough to get it. I really do hope there won't be anything happening to our country.

How come it's like this?

I've only been working here for few days, and I already feel exhaustion. It's so much different from what I've been through. Basically, I've not done ANY lab work here, everyday I just sit in front of the comp, trying hard to figure out what's happening to me? How come things turn out this way? I'm here to learn, and expose myself to other things. One conclusion: I can't sit inside an office! I feel like i must really go out and expose myself to various things, not just sit here, do nothing, generate nothing. I feel shameful, coz I'm of no help here, and yet people need to waste time and energy to entertain me. I feel so useless here, eventhough it's not my fault. Well, i just hope things will get better later.

The same thing

Officially I've been in this place for 3 days, and I still don't know what can i do. They're not going to start the project any sooner than 2 months, and by that time I've already left. The only thing i can do right now is literature review, which is so boring. I'm devastated! Nothing much i can do about it, it's their decision to attach me here, and i feel it's not very appropriate for me to do complain. I'll try to talk with the head of the unit, see what else can be done, since i can't contribute much here.

I've gone to eat sushi yesterday, they're having some promotion for the members. EVERY PLATE RM2! I ate a lot! This is the first time I have all the sushi until my heart's content. But it's the last day. THey started it on monday. If i knew earlier, I'll go everyday! Felt better, coz I didn't any vouchers from the membership, usually they'll give vouchers through their calendar, but it's different this year. This is the first time i use my card after I bought it last december.

So bored here, sitting in front of the comp, doing nothing. I just hope i can find other things for me to do.

It's been a month!

I can't believe this! It's been more than one month since i used the internet! I think it might be more than a month, I don't have internet access since February. So much things happened in this 2 months: I've finished my thesis writing, I've handed it in, I've presented quite well, and I've finished my finals. then bla bla bla bla bla....... I've been on the go nonstop for these 2 months, I ddidn't have a good rest, I don't even have time to go shopping! It's just so tiring.

I'm having my training in a reknowned research centre in this country. The place is so old. They're here for more tha 100 years, and sometimes it's so creepy to walk alone, especially my work starts at 7.30am. I've got nothing to do here, and i kinda regreted to come here. If I didn't apply for this, i can graduate this May, i can use this time to do the 3rd semester, can graduate faster. I don't need another semester. Sigh, this all is about planning. I've been dying to come here, since it got a very good reputation on doing research findings, but the situation has not been that good. Those working here have not been able to produce good findings, and there aren't much projects goind on. Another thing is, I've been sent to the Envirnomental Health Research Centre, doing something totally not related with my studies! I just don't know what to do here. How to say? people here are not the same channel. I've been trained in a molecular lab, everything i think is from the molecular way f view, but they are from another point of view. Feel bit ackward. It's only been 3 days, andI alr feel like rotting here. Nothing to do! Even they attached me to a Doctor (the one that has patients, not a Phd holder), but he's only doing PCR, something that i've leart before. I want to be exposed to something new, something different. It's so sad, being bale to come here, but there's nothing here for me to do! But this place still accept a lot of students. I can't imagine myself be here for another 8 weeks. It's killing me. I wanna get out!