I'm Full

This is the first time i worked so late in these 2 months. I start work at 9.30am and I went back at 8.45pm (officially it's 7.30pm, coz need to wait for ah boon for dinner) Gosh I've worked 10 hours today! This is really not me! But what to do? I can't finish the things, really need to work more hours. Luckily there'll be another permanent worker coming on monday, really hope he can handle some of it. But then, if he can handle evrything, then they won't need me anymore. I wonder will they fire me? But i need more cash ler...... really hope they won't do that, if not, how am I going to find my fees?

Went to the very famous Kim Gary for dinner. I ordered peanut butter and condensed milk waffle as recomended by ah boon, boy it's GOOD~~~~!! I feel sooooo 幸福 when i had the first bite.... (how to express in english?? i don't know any word that can express my feelings) .....the waffle just melt inside of my mouth, the peanut butter stays on my tongue, plus the condensed milk, it's just perfect... boon said i look like i'm doing an advertisement, eat like that, with that kind of emotion. I mean, it's such a blessing that you can have good food, and i am that kind that will choose food over any other thing else. I just can't resist the temptation! it's just sooooo good..... i can't help myself! But then it's quite thick though, i can't finish the whole thing. I feel full when i finished half of it only. I definitely gonna eat that againn, but share with another person though.

Once again i need to say out loud : MY DRIVING SKILLS SUCKS! I can't even do a side parking properly! I really can't. I can't I can't I can't! I'm not skillful! I just don't know why, when i reversed into the space, half of the car is on the road. Only half of the car is inside the space. How can this happen? I'd done a perfectly well one before with the direction of ju ching, but then without someone shouting beside me 'turn here, go straight, turn right.....', i don't think i can manage a side parking..... copy lisense...... i'm just not skillful...... ah well, there's always straight parking anyway, so won't bother much bout this, kaka

I just feel like dropping here to write somethng eventhough i'm so damn busy. Feel like my arse is burning now. Listening to some songs, ad feel like, sigh.... Why do i keep feeling lonely these few days? though i'm chatting with some friends, i just can't help feeling lonely.... even a tiny little song can trigger the sad gene inside me.... i mean, what's wrong with me? why do i always feeling like this? think i just have to blame it all on te hormone...... sucks! i hate when i'm like that! i wanna go shopping!!!!

I've been working long hours today, i just don't know how can i survive until back home. There's a lot of work, and i need to finish it all, but maybe it's because I didn't do fast enough, now there's a lot of work stack until now need to finish. I just don't know how to finish it all, think need to work more than 8 hours tomorrow.

My sister commented about the title of this blog, becoming a sex bomb, haha. She keep fussing that it's not appropriate, haha. It's just so fun! I wanna transform myself into a totally different person from wat am I now. I don't know why i have this kind of thinking, but one thing for certain is that I'm tired of my looks now. I hope i can become a bit different. This is what i wanna do for the time being, and I don't know what i can do now, except this. It's like I'm sick. Like those girls who's very crazy about losing weight, why they can become aneroxia, because the consumption of food is the only thing that they can control, other than that every other thing is not in their hand, so they get contended as they can control the food that they eat, and the food that they throw up. It's some mentality that's haunting them.

Basically i just don't know what the heck have i writen. My mind is like jelly now, i can't think , i just wannac lose my eyes. They're so swollen that they are bigger than eggs. Don't know what happened? After i took off my contacts they're like this. Hope it's not infection. I hate to wear specs back.

hmm, suddenly remembered an incident. I went overnight at my sister's place last few days, and the next morning i noticed that i forgot to bring along my makeup case! And the first thought that cross my mind is, i don't have any brow pencil and mascara! I haven't know that i'm so dependent on brow pencil and mascara. I don't wanna be seen with my short brow, and my unflattering eye lashes. I just feel so naked without mascara! If anyone tell me that this would be my reaction last fe months if i don't have mascara, i will laugh at them! But know i totally understand why there're some girls who won't step out of their house without makeup. This just don't feel me! hmm, think this is a good change, i hope. Then next time i will include lip gloss.

I'm listening to all those sad love songs by Penny and Fish Leong, suddenlly I just feel sad and lonely, while I'm working in a jam pack full office! don't know why, i just feel like that. Maybe I should start to find myself another man, haha. But then, I don't think that's the problem. t's my wn feeling, my own thinking. I can be happy and lively, and embrace my life as i haven't done before. It's just my own attitude. I will never be the one I am now if that haven't happen. I feel contended with life now, and Iim doing some other plannings for it. I hope i can meet with more new friends, tha can change my life. Some of them already are my friends, then some that i met recently is really changing my life. Thanks to you all! They are some online friends, who i can chat nonstop. The weirdest thing is, i havent met any of them! But we're planning for a gathering, and i know i'll love them. They're just like me, trying to lose weight all the while. haha. They really cherish my life, and make me know that,there's still a lot of other things other than coupledom (eventhough I aready knew that, but somehow, aiya how to say? like that la!) Thanks to all my friends and family!

This is weird...

I'm kida late for today's work, but since i'm part timer, i'm working flexible hours. When I step into the lift, there's this good looking guy who's in office wear, had his tie wrap around his neck as if it's a shawl! I can't hide my amazement, but then, it's kinda rude for me to stare at him for a long while, and i just pretend that there's nothing special or wrong with him. The funny thing is his style is as if he's very yao ying and handsome! I just wanna laugh, but then it'll be very rude of me if i did that.

The work load is quite a lot, and i start to wonder whether I'm a perfectionist. I want everything to be done as quickly as possible, and i want to fininsh everything in a day! I can't leav the work undone or unattended to, and I'll be very sorry and sad if I've made any mistakes. I really do think I'm a perfectionist now. i can't tolerate anything that is not perfect, and I think I'm a control freak! I don't want to turn into a freak! I'm like I can't tolerate anything which is not under my control, that's a good point that Im' a control freak. hmm, really think i need to let go. Just let go, then i think i'll be much better, less stress, less trouble. Really need to do sth bout my attitude and temper. I don't wanna turn into my mother!

I went back ipoh last weekend, and that's constant eating! Every hour every minute i'm thinking of eating all the nice food in Ipoh! And i'm sure i gained weight. haha. But then, it's still worth it, coz the food in Ipoh is just GREAT!

Been a busy day today, got class till 4, then came back clean up a bit, wanted to have a nap, but my head is just so painful that i can't close my eyes! I just don't know why. I hope i can sleep later.

I haven been exercising last whole week, and i hope i'll do some form of exercise this week. My grandma keep saying that I'm so skinny alr, and I musn't diet anymore! But then, i do hopw i look more fit and fab! So i'll keep on my exercise plan, and hope i can achieve the bod i want.

I met with my group of coursemate just now for supper. Boy I'm full! I just had half portion of cheese naan, then a mango special (which is mango ice blended with longan, laichi, watermelon cubes and nata de coco) The food is good, and we are only sitting by the road! It's bit weird though, coz again i'm the only chinese among a group of malays. I'm not being racist or what, i really enjoy with this group of friends. Most of them are very intelligent, and they have good vision of what to do with their future. They are not like the typical malays that need the help of the government to pass, i mean THEY ARE SMART, the exceptions. I like them. Then one of them commented that `I look different', hmm, it's the best compliment i got so far, coz I do look different from few months ago. What have i changed? Basically i'm just without my glasses, had a new hair cut, and a little bit slimmer. That makes me whole lot different from the past me. And i think it has to do with my attitude. I'm more charismatic now i guess, hahahaha.

Another thing is, I noticed that I'm such a lousy driver, a lousy side parking driver to be precise. I've used nearly 5 minutes to park my car into a side slot, which can be consider quite big compare to my little car. And now my arms and shoulder blade is aching! I really don't know how to do side parking! I'm bad! I just can't find the correct angle and park my car in. Think i really need more practice in this, moreover the car is so small, i shouldn't have any problem parking it. Ah well, think the onclusion will still be the same : I'm a lousy driver. The End.

I'm walking on a tar road which has just finished layered, i can still feel ths softnest of the road, as iff i'm going to step a whole on it, as if i'm going to slip down. It's just so weird the feeling, coz we always step on hard surfaces, and we have the solid feeling under our feet. But just now i feel like i'm going to drown. It's just weird, it's not like you step on a soft bed, it's just like you're being pull down, like a quick sand.

Been eating Twiggies while i'm driving just now, and it suddenly struck me that accidents happened on the road are mostly caused by people who eat and drive! Think i shouldn't be doing that next time. I'm just too hungry just now!

Ouch!

As usual I was doin all the uploading and stuffs like that in the office, with my mp3 on. (btw, it's wokring now, and i hope there'll be no more problems) My supervisor suddenly drop by my cell, and tole me that i looked a bit darker and flushed compare to the usual me. Gosh! I'M DARKER? How could it be! I've just walked under the sun for less than 30 minutes today! How could this happening to me? I'm already dark, now when i'm darker, i just don't know what can i do alr. I think every night i'll do whitening mask, that should help a little bit i guess.

How rude

I'm walking at the corridor, then a junior come up to me and ask : "wei, where is XXX seminar room?" I was like, har? Can't you be a little bit more polite? I know she's a first year from the booklet that she's holding, and only juniors will ask questions as where's this and where's that. I mean, this is your first year here, and i definitely look much older than a first year right? (but I hope not....) At least ask the question in a more polite manner la. I do not owe you anything leh.....

Then when I'm having my breakfast just now, the girl sat next to me keep coughing. I know the weather's bad, and a lot of people fall sick, but can't you just cover you mouth or look some where else when you're coughing? I'm EATING there leh! With my fried bihun exposed to all the bacteria and viruses that was carried by her, i don't when will i get sick too! I just don't know why i keep experiencing this kind of things today. What an unpleasant morning, and this is only 10.45am. I just don't know how can i continue with this day when i'm so moody and gloomy. I thought only mondays will make me gloomy, but seems like today will also be a gloomy day, when the first thing in this morning is rain! It's not that I don't like the rain, just that it'd caused massive jam, and i'm 10 minutes late today. I always feel bad when i'm late for class, it's just not me. I rather skip the class if i'm late!

I do notice i'm not that into study anymore. I've got loads of work for me to do, 2 short essays, one assignment, and another group assignment, but i just don't have the heart to start doing things right now. I'm actually still in the holiday mood! I just wanna leave everything and start going off to places and do things that i loved (i mean shopping... haha) And by the way, the malaysian shopping carnival will start on this Sunday 24th of July! Can't wait to go shop shop shop!

Anyone know tang lang chuan?

Tang Lang Chuan, if directly translate from mandarine, is `praying mantis fist' (I hope this is right). I've just gone to the extra curricular class, which is tang lang chuan. It's fun, for i've never done anything like this before. But i don't think i can learn a lot in 14 weeks of classes. The teacher is quite long winded, he talks a lot, haha. But then, one can still see he's very active and energetic. I hope i can belike that when i'm old, that's why i need to exercise a lot. Think i really need to have a more disclipline life style, so that i won't be eating like mad every time i see nice food! I just can't control my mouth!

This is slow man!

Been trying to upload my work to the server, but DAMN it's slow! How can i work efficiently if the most basic thing is not here? I jst can't take it anymore. I'm so frustrated. Sigh, can they just make it a little bit faster? I wonder what's other ppl doing right now?

Been back to ipoh, then back to kl again. I'm quite tired these few days, and i don't know how long can i make it. I feel like sleepoing right now. How i hope there's a pillow here! I just feel disappointed and frustrated, thats' all.

Went for Fantastic 4 on snuday with my elder sister, and that movie 's goood. It's funny, and i do really enjoy watching it. The ablities of them followed their attitude and character. Really makes me think, can human do alter our genes? Then those that do not have the chance to alter, wont have any special gifts? THen the world will be chaos. Ah well, i'm thinking of writing an essay on the rae of humans on patenting the human genes. I have to do more research in it before i can really start to write anything. Have to generate 2 essays forthis course, and i hope i can do it fast.

I'm Back!

After waited more than 45 minutes for the delayed bus at lrt station, i finally boarded it. And 2 and a half hours later, i finally reached IPOH! My hometown! Don't know why leh, i really anticipate this trip. I've never had this kind of feelings before, coz maybe this time my sister's comign back from penang also. haha. Straight after my mum picked my up from the bus stand, i went for a hair cut! And it's nice! My new hair cut is nice! Eventhough i didn't have any colour done on it, but it suits my face perfectly. This is the first time that i had a hair wash sna message for more than 15 minutes. I'm so relaxed during it, and nearly fall asleep, haha. The services here are much cheaper compared to KL, and i plan to come back here more often for the trimmings. Just hope that when i do the colour next time the style is still here. Just love the new me!

I've fumbled through my digicam, then only i notices there's a few pics that I didn't remember that i've taken bdfore! It's my sister, when we're in the hotel one day earlire before her registration in USM. And now the 2nd week is nearly finished. Hope she can really get through all this, and make a lot of new friends. She tole me on msn that she cried when she's reading my blog, think she's home sick. I've been through that too during the first few months of my stay in the hostel, but then after you have a group of friends that's sloce to you, you don't even wanna come back home!

Am I lucky or what?

As usual, i skipped class. I'm thinking of dropping this course later , so it doesn't make any difference if i go today. Besides, it's 8am class! And i don't have any other class after that. Might as well skip it and sleep more. I'm a lazy pig, i know that, and I just love food!

Met with some new online friends today. It's like, one friend intro another, so basically I'll meet a few friends per week. It's nice la, to know more friends, at least when i online i won't be that bored. And most of the days i keep chatting with these few that click with me. The way we talk is like we've known each other for ages! It's fun, really fun.we can talk bout anything! When there're more members, you can't have wnough time to finish all the messages! It's so fast! They're my weigh lose buddies. We remind each othe rof our date, and we'll work hard on it. I"m working hard, so hopefully i'll look more pretty when i meet them next month.

It's raining heavily when i left the office, and i suddenly remembered i've washed my clothes, and forgot to took it all back in........... i'm in a very frustated mood when i'm driving, some more it's raining heavily, the road is slippery, and i'm driving like a lunatic. What else can i do? I hand wash everything! I have to! there's no machine here, and I'm a cheapo that will not send my clothes to laundry. But then, I'm lucky. The rain is not heavy at my place, and my clothes are still dry! haha, think today is my lucky day man! should go buy 4D or TOTO later. haha

Suddenly remembered the little girl of my mum's friend. She's 4 years old, and she's smart. A very lovely little girl, who's not shy to ask for something that she wants. She's so adorable! I've taken her as my god daughter, and straight away she call me mummy, haha. And she mention loudly that she got 3 mummies (her biological mother, the mum's sister whom she also called mummy, and ME!), and 3 also loved her very much. Such a smart kid. Hope she'll progress, and do well in her future!

Why oh why?

My mp3 player is not working, and this is the 2nd time I've plug it into my comp! It's xp, and it doesn't need any driver, but the 2nd time it can't recognized the device. I don't know what to do with it anymore! I actually wanted to add more music in, but looks like I can't do it for the time being. Think i'll attach it to another comp, hope it'll work. What's wrong? It's working find for the first time, but what had happened now? Weird...... jinx? Anyone here has the benq mp3 player's driver? I can't open the cd. Just hope it's not one time usage. I'm scared it's spoilt when the time my dad bought it.

Been a busy day! Went to uni arounf 7.30 am, coz there's a 8am class for me. It's quite boring though, but for the sake of graduating this semester, i'll bear with it for another 14 weeks. It's not long, i think i'll be fine. The 2nd class was Dr Thiru's class, which is sth bout policies in science and technology. His class is always fun, and he can talk and talk non stop, and you won't feel bored. The last class which is plant biotech, sucks. The lecturer is a new post-doc, who doesn't quite know how to teach. And the subject is so boring! And he kept glorifying biotech students! It's like any other major in the science falculty is just plain s**t to him! How can he say like that? I mean, biotechnology is just the application of what we molecular biologist are researching on. If therere no people like us, they don't have a clue what they can do! I'm a bit pissed off by his attitude. And i nearly fall asleep during his class. Maybe i've learned the things that he taught in class, so i really don't have any interest in whatsoever things that he's trying to pass onto us.

I'm on my way to the car this evening, and there's a very pretty lady walking in front of me. her dress is nice, and she's walking on a 2 inches high heels. then sudden;y she's making some noises, loud noise i mean, and spat directly in front of me! I got so shock! Imagine a girl who's so perfect on the outside look, but i have to say no to her manners. She doesn't know how to carry herself nicely! Gosh! I'm shock man! The thing that she did is totally different from her apperance. Once again, never judge a book by it's cover. This saying is just so true!

Met with Tengku and gang for breakfast, we talked a lot. Quite fun and happy when i'm talking with them, and i don't even feel a bit ackward when i'm there, since i'm the only chinese there, and they're all malays. Tengku is very smart, and i admire her a lot. Same goes wwith Lyan. Smart and hard working! I'm just a lazy pig, if compared to them. haha. it's ok la, since Lyan is so hard working, i can copy all her notes and things! especially near exams, i really need her help. Thank you lyan! And had dinner with yin and kun, but ching is not here, if not we can be back the same four little girls when we first met in the hostel when we're all first year. Time passed so fast ler, now i'm an extended student, and now panicking about my future. guess i really need to work hard for this semester la.

I've been reading all my past posts in this blog, and found out a few things:

1. I can be very funny if i wanted to
2. I'm always complaining
3. I'm obsessed with FOOD and losing weight
4. I still think I'm pretty wuakakakakaka!

Going to meet 3 of my best friends tomorrow for dinner. They're the ones that accompany me during my first year of uni life in the hostel. Without them, I won't be the one I am today. They make my life wonderful! And they're the ones that accompany me when I'm down and sad. I'll always cherish them. They're angels to me!

And still they haven't pay me

I've been working part time in this company for the past 1 and a half month, and whill they haven't pay me my salary. It's just few hundrend ringgit, not few thousands! I wonder what had happened to the company. Why they're taking 2 weeks to get my pay cheque ready. I'm just scared that i won't get it. So i didn't go there today, infact i'm very free today, i could have spent the time there key in all the content. I rather don't. I just felt like i've been used, and that's kinda sad experience. Supposedly this kind of big company should have enough money right? I just can't help wondering. This is driving me crazy man! Basically I'm broke now, and without the pay cheque, i don't think i can survive long. Eventhough i got it today, it needs 3 days clearance. Sigh, can they be more considerate? I mean, i do not earn much, it's only few hundred, and they still wanna drag the payment. I hate this. Eventhough last time when i work as a temperory teacher, i didn't get my pay like for 3 months, but then, it's a government job, and i know i will sooner or later get my money. But now this is a different situation! I've bug my supervisor for 2 weeks, but still everyday they're going to give me lame excuse like, the person in charge not in, we need her signature, bla bla bla. I just hate this. My salary is alr so less, then it's been drag for 2 weeks. What should i do? I really have no idea alr. This sucks.

UM sucks

It seems like every starting of the semester i'll say the same thing, which is UM sucks. The registration process sucks, there's no coordination between all the lecturers, and the process of registration is just sickening. I thought this is my last semester, it'll be alright, but it is not!!! I'm so headache. They forbid us take one course, on the first day of the class! They shoul've told us earlier, or state it in the time table it's not open for other student, than cancel us all off on the first day of class! How can they do this kind of irresponsible thing? My whole time table gone hay wire! I need to adjust everything. It's ok for me to arrange again, but the biggest problem is, every course is FULL! ALL FULL!!! where can i find a course to take? Obviously the falculty has taken in way too much students, if not there won't be any problem regarding the registration. I just hate to go through this once more. I'ts sickening. I wanna puke. I'm having severe headache. Why can't they just let me through for the last semester? WHy do they have to make my life so damn miserable? I can't take this anymore. It's so dman hard for them to state down the prerequisition? I hate this all la!!

Shopping shopping shopping!

Been shopping for these few days, damn broke now. Bought myself a lot of things, and most importantly CHEAP things. haha. Been to Sungai Wang on saturday, wanted to do massage, but then was given a very very poor reception, and feed back review is not good, and promise myself I'll never go there again. Then shop for the whole day at Sg Wang, bought some items that I like, and got to see some really hot chics there. Sg Wang is actually holding the Miss Active Fasio (the cosmetic brand, Fasio, which is the subsidiary company of Kose) that day, and there're 15 contestant there. SOme of them are very pretty and active, and you can actually see from the way they dance and move their body. And there's a group af performers, whom i belive is personal trainers performed a dance, the girls there have abs man! I mean really abs! You can see the defination of the muscles on her body, and really can see the lines of her abs. So envy me ler...... i and wonder how many hours that she actuall work out to get that kind of body. In the middle of their dance, they started to throw freebies, and that particular thing hit the head of the man behind my sister (and the funny this is, he's BALD), my sister just ran over there, bend down, and pick up the thing, say thankyou, and did a small curtsy to the man, who's still blur. He opened his eyes so wide and watched my sister in astonishment, while rubbing his head. The situation is so funny, and i can't stop laughing all the way back! There're of coz some girls who wanted the gift, but then, maybe they're just too paiseh to bend down to take it like that,since it hits a man's head before hand. Later we went to check out the price, and it's more than RM50! Lose face a bit can get free things, worth it what.

Then later we went to the Guardian warehouse sales, and i get more cheap things there. I'm those who will only buy things on sales, and especially warehouse sales. But ther, i've got te tendency to buy things that i won't be using, or use a few times only. I've limit myself to buying just few items that i'm sure i'll use, and mose importantly, cheap. Got a few eye shadows, 2 way cake, sally hansen nair polish and remover, all cheap. I'm very happy and contended. And i got myself a new watch the other day! THis weekend only spend spend spend! Really need to control myself a little bit, if not I don't think i'll have enough money to last till the end of the month.

Felt very lucky. Coz i still have my sister's there for me when i'm down, and when i don't have anyone else there for me. The last i can say, family first. They are not going to leave and dump you when you're in trouble. Lucky me for my sisters and friends, i can get out of the self pity and misery so fast. I love them all!

MyVi is CUTE~~

I'm on my way to work this morning, then suddenly I saw a very cute car, in lime metallic green parked at the side of the road. Then I realised it's MyVi by Perodua. It's so cute! I'm so happy when I have a look at it. I feel so happy just looking at it, the colour just makes me wanna smile. I'm going to influence every relative of mine to buy that, coz it''s really cute cute cute! Compare to the S**vy that was produced by Proton, MyVi is so much more cute, and it looks more durable. I've see and listen to a lot of the S**vy advertisement, and I'm looking forward to have a real good alook at it. I had a chance last week, and I'm really very very disappointed. The interior of that car look flimsy, and the design is not nice, and all the compartments look like wanna fall off like that, eventhough it's a display car, it should at least have a more durable look right. I rather buy the MyVi, eventhough i haven't try the car before, but I have more confidence in Perodua cars, (maybe coz I'm driving a Kancil?) and I can see the distinct difference in the quality of Kancil and Wira. I always prefer perodua cars cars. haha.

That's GOOD.

Had a very long chat with my housemate this afternoon, she's clearing her stuff. This is actuall our first chat. It's like she's busy with her work, and i'm always not around, it's hard for us to just sit down and chat, not like the days when all my friends ar still studying. We talked bout how FAT we were last time, and I took out my IC and driving license, and I just can't stop thinking:GOSH, I'm more pretty now, wuakaka. And she's the second one compliment me today that i look more pretty than before. wuakakakakaka. Happy man. I do look bit chubby in my IC, that's taken when i'm teaching in a primary school after form6 (that's like, 3 years ago?) , then comparing to my form5 photo which is in my driving license, i do look more pretty and slimmer now.

wuakaka, who said I'm not pretty? I AM PRETTY WAT.

haha

KFC!

It's been such a long time since I've taken KFC. Went to the KFC near the uni to meet up with Siok yee and Swit Kuan for lunch, boy i didn't meet them after our last paper in Bangunan Peperiksaan some where 4 months ago? Can't remember. Any where, got a compliment from Swit Kuan that i look slimmer, wuahahahaha. Happy happy. At least those that didn't see for quite some time notice that i'm a little little bit thinner. I didn't take fried chicken, but instead i have nuggets, cheesy wedges (large one), and whipped potato (also large). I'm full! Potatoes really can make you full eh. I don't know that there's SO MUCH people there in the afternoon! That KFC is realy in a strategic place. In the middle of my meal, came Lyan! Then the four of us chit chat there, trying to catch up with each other (also some gossips of our ex coursemates). This is really fun, haveing a group of friends around you, and you have the time to meet with them. It will be harder for us to meet up after my sem starts, and when they all found jobs. I really do enjoy this meal, eventhough it's very fattening. I do look more pretty, didn't I?

Sze just sent me this.

I think this is a photo that we took when we're having our lunch at Swiss in Greentown there. I don't quite remember when was it, but hmm, i do look more pretty now, wuakaka. Later i'll post it up ya, my recent photos, after i have my haircut, coz now I look horrible!

CSI

I'm now in the process of downloading as much CSI series as i can. Just watched 2 episodes. I remembered my mum asked me suddenly one day : ei, the things that you studied ar, is it like those that in CSI ar? For the first time, my mother knows what the heck i studied. It feels good. I'm very into these series, it's so exciting! Trying to figure out what happened, and who's the killer. But my first love is still CSI, the other two series, CSI Miami and CSI New York, hmm, it's not that i don't like them, it's just that I'm too attracted to Grissom (is it spell like this?) He's so man! Am I attracted to old wise guys? Am I am I? Gosh i have no idea

The thing do works

I try to make it a habit to fill in my brows and apply mascara everyday. I noticed that my lashes are longer than it used to be! Happy leh. The product that some forumers intro is really working, and it works best if used together with the lengthening mascara. For the past 2 months, i apply the lengthening protein onto my lashes every night, but without using the masara. I just started to use both product day and night last week, and my lashes are way longer, eventhough with the help of the night protein they're a bit longer. Hmm, this is good. Will ask my sister to work harder, don't be lazy. It's just great. At last i have a little bit of eyelashes that can be curled using eyelash curler. haha. sorry for this, i'm just too happy.

I might be going back to ipoh this weekend, since my sister might be going back too. I miss her a lot, and feel a bit sad, for it's hard for me to meet her up in the future, since she's in penang, and i'm in KL. I went to check the air ticket price in air asia, and it cost quite a lot, around 150 for return ticket too. The bus ticket only cost around 25. Taking flight is more comfortable i guess, but it's way too expensive for a student. Ah well, i need to talk to her though, just hope she'll be back this weekend, and i can go back meet her, before my last semester starts.

Visited the Loreal Paris China webpage. Try to find out which makeup suits my skin condition, but didn't gain much, except there's a few video clips that teaches u how to makeup. But the one that was taught in Lancome Taiwan site is much easier, and less fuss. It's so easy that u see ppl applying makeup, and when it's done by yourself, it's disastrous! I really think i need more practice. I sure do. As the saying goes, there's not ugly woman, just lazy woman. I'll work hard to become more pretty! Not to say i'm not pretty now, i'm pretty, but there's a little bit of flaws here and there, and i'm going to work hard to correct it.

I need motivation!

Been quite slack these few days, ate a lot, then didn't exercise a bit. LEt me see, according to my diary, the last time that i exercise is 2 weeks ago! How can i lose weight if i continue ot be like this? Sister's here for a week, then later meet fish fish, then prepare to go penang with sis. I'd a date with some of the online forum members to meet up one month later, to compare our results. I don't wanna still be like this, without any change. I really need a change! Btw, Sze said something that it's the first time that she saw me letting down my hair when i picked her up yesterday, is it so? I never let my hair down? How awful and sad. What's the use of me keeping my hair, if i never let it down? I need a hair cut, badly. I really think that if my hair cut is good, no matter what i do with my hair it'll still look good. My sister's hairstylist commented my hair will be very flat and lifeless if i do rebonding, coz i don't have thick hair. What can i do now? Need to find good hair stylist, then can give me a good cut. Then i have to pay a lot. sigh. This is the price. You want good service, you have to pay. Or should i just cut it short? What else can i do? Colour it? That will cost more. I'm just a poor student, can't afford all that. Think i just need to spend on the hair cut, other than that, i'll wait, until i have more money.

USM is good! but then.................................

My younger sister manage to get into USM, so the 3 Lee sisters and the mother went to penang and stayed at the nearest hotel for 1 night, and sent my sister there this morning. I have to say, me and my elder sister went from KL to ipoh, then after had our lunch and pick up my mum and sister, went to penang straight yesterday. The we drove back ipoh this evening, and will be back to KL tomorrow afternoon. It's like, most of the time we spent is on the car, driving. I'm really tired, but i just can't sleep.

USM is rated as the top university in malaysia in the academic field. But then, the condition of the hostel that my sis is staying is just so bad. The room is dirty, the furnitures are old, the toilets are filthy. I knos i shouldn't be complaining, but i'm doing the comparison, of hostel that i stayed last time in UM, and the hostel that my sis's staying now. They never upgrade or up keep the place. she's the youngest in the family. everything is well organised and well prepared fro her. my sister really can't suit herself there. she just smsed me telling me she missed us all, and she missed KL. i'm kinda worried bout her, with her temper and attitude, really hope she can make a realy good bunch of friends there,a dn she'll start enjoy the hostel and campus life. and another thing, the quality of the student helpers there are low. i can't understand why they want to find some students who are not good in the command of english. i know i'm being prejudice, and i asked too much, but at least they understand what the f*** i'm saying, and can answer me in preper english. i mean, kinda disappointed with them. is the the quality of local grads? then later when i graduate and go to find work, is this the impressoin that i'm going to give to my future employers? how are they going to evaluate me? I don't wanna be like that! (in the mean time i'm kinda thank you my mother and my tuition teacher for stressing the IMPORTANCE of english) i hope i have good market value. At least i have a good command of english, i hope. haha