shu uemura eyelash curler

Met up with my coursemate Lyan for dinner just now. We had roaster chicken! The muffin is just soooooooooo nice. It's so chocalatey, and so soft and warm..... feel xin fu when i just had a bite. i think i can finish half a dozen, haha. Wanted to buy some for my housemates, but then they'd run out of it, so maybe next time la, i can treat them to nice, warm chocolate muffins. We had some small talk, mostly bout our ex and current coursemates. And again i feel a bit sad, how come people can be so childish and naive, that they judge people by their results? sigh.... we are coursemates la, they can't even give a smile and a hello when saw each other in the hall. I really don't understand it. Is results so important? Is it thatbeing one of the `in' crowd that important? I'm sad and frustrated. Coz i've always been getting this kind of treatment from all those so called students with good results. They make me feel like i'm a piece of trash, coz i'm not as good as they are. When i talk to them they constantly make me feel small, and i start to hate myself for being manipulated by them. Maybe they didn't mean anything, but i just feel that way. I hope i can have more confidence in myself. I know i'm good, coz I AM GOOD. it's just that i'm bad in choosing the subjects that i have, that's all, haha.

Got myself a shu uemura eyelash curler! Been eyeing that for a long time, since i've been using lash lengthening thingy, and suddenly my lashes are long enough for me to curl! haha. happy bout this, so will practice using it for sometime first before i really use it. as u can see, i'm a damb ass when it's related to makeup. really need to pump up my skills on this.

I'm melting

It's so hot today! I can't even go out for a while. Luckily i came back home early today. Part time for a shirt while, cannot stand the network, so came back. Need to wait for the previous tenant to come back to pack her things. But then, it's only the movers ( i should say mover, coz there's only 1 person came) came. How can he a lone take so many things? There's a big cupboard, a queen size matress, a table, a 29 inch tv and stand, a lot of clothes, etc etc etc. She only disclosed that she has a matress and a cupboard that need to be shifted. The mover didn't even bring a trolley! It's like, if you have that much things, be honest and tell. If not how can people arrange your things and move for ya? It's like, she keep blaming the chief tenant for not packing her things for her, and she keep saying ` didn't XX said she's packed EVERYTHING for me?' wah lau! as if the chief tenant your mother la! Do everything for you la! you didn't pay the rent alr ok, and she let you put your things in the unit, she can (i mean WE, i'm staying here right now) just throw everything out of the unit! But then, she did ask for my help, and i'm willing to help, as long as it don't use up soo much of my time. I wasted 2 wednesday afternoon for her, just stuck inside the room waiting for her movers to come. Last week is he don't know how to come, now the 2nd time is she didn't disclose everything to the movers, and he can't carry everything all by himself. I wonder what would happen next time. She didn't have the time to come? Or there's something else that she needs to take? Or she wants to leave everything here? I do wonder. C'mon la. Be honest. Just disclose everything! Let people have the time to plan ahead. Not only for the movers, for me too! Coz i'm the only one FREE for the time being, haha.

How can she do it?

Just had a bried chat with my chief tenant, she doesn't quite look that old, i mean compare to her actual age. She's look very the same as me, eventhough she's older than my sister. My elder sis actually looked older than her. (I'm so bad!) And then i got another shock, she told me last time her weight is more than 70! Gosh! She's much slimmer than me now! How can she do it? And she lost all the extra pounds in 2 months time, without going to any saloon or took diet food. She just told me, everything that goes into your mouth, will eventually shows on your body, if you don't control. I'm so impressed, she's very discliplined. Can reduce her weight from 70 sth to now 50 ( i think), must be controling the diet very much. I think i need to be like that. Now i have another role model other than ah boon! Really need to disclipline myself to lose weight. I know i'm in my ideal weight, but i wanna look slimmer! seems like my whole life is only losing weight, but i really do enjoy this leh. I love my life!

What a coincidence!

ok, this is it. I'm sick and tired of the slow conncetion. Why is it the boss sooooooooooo stingy? Imagine there're more than 80 individuals working in that company, and we have to share a mere 1MB line? Everyone's is doing work, and a lot of them is uploading pictures and wallpapers, and i'm there to upload my sms content. How to work? I'm so pissed off these few days, i nearly throw the whole monitor to the floor! It's jus SOOOOO slow! I wait there more than i work, the only hour which is smooth is when EVERYONE in the company went for lunch, then i can upload my things smoothly. How can the boss don;t understand? If the company has a faster internet line, then everyone will be working faster, then when the work's done faster, the company can earn more. Now mosst of us just sat there to wait for a smoother connection, i can say that 70% of the time i'm in office, that's the total time that i just sat there and wait. Everything that i do requires the internet, i can't do anything with internet! sigh, boss ar, we need faster connection ar! it's so slow, how to work? I'm only a part timer, i only work there for 4 hours, imagine those permanent staff, for whols day, just wait! waste so much time and effort.

Just came back from sending a friend to the lrt station, and i met Susan! She's the one that taught me the art of culturing cells, she's the first one to actually exposed me to the lab culture. I'm very grateful to her, and now she's stayong opposite of my unit! Happy to see her, it's like the chinese said `yuan fen', i met her when i'm doing my training in IMR (she's working in the lab where i went tumpang for few days), then now she's staying opposite me. Quite good, i should go find her some other time.

Life is like a bed of roses, is it?

I've been cracking my head, trying to think of what to do with my life. I've always wanted to further studies, but then there's the $$ problem, then it's quite hard for me. Sad to say my parents have never been supportive on this, and what they want me to do is to gradute faster, and start earning money for them. I've tried very hard to communicate with them, but failed. Everything matters to them is money, not us. I know some of you will scold me for saying this, but this is what happening in my family. A mere degree is more that enough to survive, that's their thinking. But with the course that i studied, it's hard. I wanna continue doing what i love best, but have to compromise, coz $$. And again, i wanna do the things that i like, but without $$, you can't have anything that you want. THis is cruel, i'm sad. But i'm trying my very best to do my part pf research, hope i can get the things i want in my life. I've always been unlucky, hope this time things will be different.

Fish Fish is here!

At last, ah yu the fish is here! And i got a present from her! Happy happy, long time no see fren alr, so happy to see her. It's been like a year since i see her. Ah well, think this is the time that i can really enjoy.

At last I've decided to straighthen my hair, hope it will turn out alright. But then, now is to think where should i do it? Ipoh or KL? of coz if it's inKL it will cost me more, but i really don't have the time and energy to go back ipoh, not for now. Hope i can really find some time.

Are you happy?

This is the topic of this morning's kong kai fan woon on 988, Chan Fong, admire him a lot. I heard some ppl phone in to say about the happiness and unhappiness. A guy is happy, coz he can earn 5k a month, compared to 2k 5 years ago. Another woman keeo complaining that her children never share their secrets with her, but when being ask back wheter she'd ever share her secrets with her mother, she snapped : this is a different situation, my mothere NEVER loved me, but i loved my children a lot. I mean, this is not a very valid reason, she keep wanting to know EVERYTHING about her children! This is kinda creepy. Why does she wanna know everything? Such a controlling mother. She said she just wanna know more and care for her children very much, but they just never open up to her. Sigh, this is not good. Children, when they're grown up, they have their own life and their own ways of goin through their life. A mother is there to give love and support, not there to comtrol and know everything of the child. This makes me think of my own mother. Hell, she's the same, controlling in every bit of my life. She keeps bugging me of me whereabouts, my doings, and this is driving me nuts! How can i just drive some sense in her? This is my life, and mum you can't always accompany me. Just your help, support and love is more than enough.

Another woman said she's very happy, coz she's still alive, healthy and energetic. She's diagnosed with secondary cancer more than 10 years ago, but she's still alive now. She's just thank you that she's still alive, and can cherish the love of her family and her children. She's just contended that the fact that she is still alive. Cherish the small things in life, not only big achievements. This will make you feel much better, i guess. I'm kinda like a very easily contended person, i will be very happy just with the small small things that i have in life. My family, my friends, those that teached me some lessons in life, those that hate me etc. I'll cherish them all. When we're contended, we'll be happy. Or that's what i think.

Contended

Went to petaling street today with my sis, happy. Bought a set of comics (actually a bday present from my sis), then bought a lot of novels! So happy. I've never feel the urge to read comics for such a long time, and the urge to buy ALL the comics back make me feel the rush to earn more money. haha. Just feel contended, coz i can still get the things i want. I'm happy man. so happy, kind felt like i'm still in secondary school, renting comics from the bookshop without my mum knowing it. I really got whacked by my mum when she found it out. This is my childhood, comics, cartoon and novels. Though it's not the same, but i still love comics. Hopefully my friends won't feel that me still bit weird. haha. So old still read comics? I think i can never leave that.

Just had a chat with a uni mate, then sth just struck me. How come ppl will only befriend someone else who has the same results that he or she has? Is this the criteria for choosing friends? I can say i'm not like that (coz I'm not good enough to be the one that choose, i can only become the choosen ones, haha) i can never understand that, though this kind of things is happening everyday around me. I've never been the victim, maybe i'm too happy go lucky, as wyemeng's saying goes : you can't please the whole world, you can't make the whole world love you. If becoming a mere friend also need this kind of scrutinize, then i don't know what will happen to the future husband or wife.

Ah well, i think i just be contended with my comics. haha

Wow

My sister is here again, this time is because she needs to exchange something that she bought from the previous trip. She's been back to home for 2 days, then she's here again. I feel good, coz there's someone there to accompany me. I'm scared of being alone i guess. I'm scared of loneliness. I really do enjoy the company of my sister. So scared now, what will i do if she's not here? Aiyah, can't think of this kind of things liao. It's so frustrating. Guess I really need to buy a lot more tv series or cartoon to fill up the extra time that i have now, or i should go buy comics or rent them. I can't always be out, coz I'm kinda homely person, i rather snugle in my bed, doing nothing, than go out. I rather eat instant noodles than go out have a meal alone. See, i'm scared of being alone. This is not good, I really don't know what will or what can i do with all those extra time. Hmm, a few pieces of cheese cake would be nice. haha. I'm so scared i'm going to gain weight! But I lost some, haha, after determination and discipline to go exercise. Happy happy, i can wear tight jeans again. (Sounds like the ad of some weight loss pill, haha)

I'm so BORED

Today's internet connection sucks! I can't have anything done! Can' upload, can't download, and when it's moving, it's really very slow. How can i have my things dne if it is like that? I just can't imagine what can i do for now. I just sit here like an idoit, hoping it will become normal again. But it ain't happening. guess i just have to sit and relax. Hmmm, it'll be good if there's a piece of cheese cake here. yum yum. talking bout food, i'm very hungry now. Didn't have my breakfast, and i feel so sleepy right now!

Something lucky happened to me yesterday. As i'm crosing the road, there's a huge pajero coming, and the driver loooks very fierce. I'm so scared i'm going to e knocked down by him! But then, he came to a screeching halt, and let me pas the road, smiling broadly towards me! It's like, i feel so lucky! This is Malaysia, drivers NEVER let pedestrian walk first. It's always the bigger, the winner, and us who's walking, will always be bullied. It's liie, suddenly i've got a rush, i feel very lucky. Count your blessings. I'm truly lucky, i'm not handicapped, i've got my own hands and feet, i can work, i can take care of myself. I've got my family, friends. I should really be counting my blessings. It's like, i should be contended with what i have, shouldn't always feel sorry for myself, as i have a lot that others don't have. I'm lucky. I realy am.

I'm Hungry!

Woke up quite early this morning, need to send my sister to bus stop to g back ipoh. I've been very happy these few days, with the company of my sister. We've watched Japanese cartoon series yesterday! I'm sooooo happy! THis made me remembered all the happy moments when i'm still young, the times when I've spent most of my pocket money renting comics and novels; the times when our mum ound out that we're renting comics, and finally got wacked because of that. Hahaha, great memories. This is my childhood i guess, comics, cartoon, novels. I still love comics very very much. When i've got the money i'm going to collect all my favourite comics!

Feel very hungry right now, havent breakfast. And now I'm suffering gastric. I wanna leave early, need to go out settle sth. And ah yu the fish will be here next thursday! Happy happy.

Happy happy

My sister came down to KL, and both the Lee sisters went shopping in a few places. Happy happy. It's so happy that I can just go around the shops and bargain with them. But then, i also spent a lot. Haha. The happiness from geting good bargains can cover it all .

Bumped into sze lyn in the Tang's Studio in BB Plaza. Actually I saw her sister first, and i thougt she looked familiar, and we met for the first time in don't know how many months in the changin rooms! haha, felt lucky that day, met with sze, then another good thing happen to me when I'm ner the tool plaza, then got ppl treat me and my sisters (the elder sister's boy friend), then in the first time in really don't know how many monthes, i watched TV.

This weekend is really fruitful. Happy coz got great bargains, contended coz I'm with my siblings. Nothing beats my own family. I love them all!

It's been a long time

It has been a long time since i came here to write anything. There's been some major changes in my life. I'm currently single again, after 5 years be with that man (i should call him BOY, coz he's just no mature enough). It's very sad for me, but I'm strong, I will be stronger. At first i felt like the end of the world, but then, I think i have more important things to do in my life than to be sad for the rest of my life! So here I am, trying to be normal again, trying my best to pick up back all my usuals hobbies and habits. I'm still me. As the old saying goes, no pain, no gain. I've leant a lot from this. I', trying to forgive, and forget. Coz i know if i don't forgive, i will never be able to forget. This is life, we can't always want it to be waht we want. I'm trying hard to lead a normal life back, of coz occasionally i'll feel lonely. So by then i will try to find things to do la. Luckily I've found a part time job now as a data entry person (THANKS to ah Boon!!!), I don't have much time to THINK, and to feel sorry for myself. I'm alright now. I think i will be better in the future. I am strong!