And I'm going back hometown

Been busy studying for tests these few days, and of course shopping too, not to mention Zara sales starts today. I'm not keen into buying clothes though, but it's just that I LOVE SALES!
It's that shopaholic in me that's making me buy all these things! I'm going with my sister later to Zara, then Ikea since they too is having sales, just hope that i'll have enough money to pay.

Will be going back to Ipoh tomorrow morning, can't wait to meet with all my friends! Wait for me Sze!

Tsunami

I’m back to my own place now. I’ve spent the last weekend, which is the Christmas weekend at my sister’s place. Watched tv that few days, only tv, nothing else. There’s no computer there, no internet, and I’m so bored! I got to know the quake that shattered few parts of Asia when I’m there. I feel so sad for all those people. It happened on Sunday, when most of the families are having their time out by the beach. So much died, not to mention the tourists, and fishermen. This is the first time that Malaysia been affected by quake. Although it’s not earth quake, it’s tsunami. It is impossible for those who’s at the site survive. The wave is 20 feet high, when they hit and drag you, it’s impossible to run or hide. Everyone is having fun at the beach, and no one suspect such disastrous thing would happen. I feel so sorry for the families that have lost some of their member. There’s even a man who witnessed 4 of his son and his wife being swept away by waves when they’re holidaying by the beach. It’s just so sad. Are we near the end of the world? Is this signs of it? I just hope that there will be no more subsequent shakes.

Had a test today, did quite badly, and there will be 2 more tests for the next 2 days. Just hope that I’ll survive.

It's White!

Today is my lucky day I suppose. Those that I studied did come out in the test. I’m quite happy with it, though it’s not that I answer everything correctly, at least I can manage to answer 80% of it correctly. I’m lucky because I notice one page is missing when I did it half way through! Normally I will never check the question papers, but today I do not know why, I ask the invigilator this question. Hmm. Must be my white t-shirt that bring me luck. My horoscope reading state that while is my lucky colour for this week. Haha. This kind of situation is quite judgmental. You can say it’s lucky, of vice versa. It’s lucky that I did notice, but it’s unlucky for me to have got that particular question paper out of 60 sets! Everything depends on how you see and judge things. It’s all depend on you.

Just hope the same will happen with my tomorrow’s paper.

As usual

As usual, my life is boring. Gone to school, did some experiments with the flies, came back, studying now. I'm going to have 2 tests in the next 2 days, so need to study a little bit, haha. It's just like the semester started last week, and now I'm going to have mid term test, and going to have my mid term break. My younger sister who's finished her stpm is here with my elder sister, coz I;m not free to bring her go shopping these few days. I'm going to pick her up on weekends, then we're going to shop till we drop, like the good old days, haha.

Been planning to move to another place, coz really can't stand the atitude of my land lady anymore. She screams and insult her husband everyday, sometimes even throw things everywhere. I'm kinda scared, and can't concentrate on my studies. Imagine early in ther morning, when the sky is still dark, you hear someone scream and yell at the top of their lungs. I got awaken a few times like this, and she won't stop. I'm even scared to go out of my own room. Sigh. Her husband lost his job i think, so like everyday both of them back at the house, nothing to do, then fight. I'm tired of all of it. Just hope they can stop once in a while, let me have som time to study. I'll be grateful.

Sorting Out

I've been backat home these few days, thinking what's the purpose of my life. I don't have any particular aim to achieve in life right ow, except do my best in studies, and this makes me wonder, is that all my life? Only my studies? And i found out yes, i only have my studies, beside that there's nothing there for me to achieve. Now only i know how shallow my life is, and how few things that i can do and can be done with my life. I'm just a nobody. I do not have a big dream, i just want to survive in this world.

Watched Ocean's 12 last night, have to say it has a nice plot. I really can't guess what's going to happen the next minute, and it's quite funny too. And by the way, i didn't watch Ocean's 11, and this sequel of it has nothing to do with the first movie. I really do enjoy it.

Another Day

This is another boring day of mine, that i don't have anything to do. I do have somethings to do, like returning books to the library and to lecturers, beside that, nothing. Tried to study at house, but then my landlady, she kept yelling at her husband! As early as 6AM! 6am in the morning! What the heck. I was awaken by her screams. How could her husband stand her? He just sat there, do nothing. I'm very annoyed. Just hope that they can stop it. She continues until 6pm! She can do that for THAT long. How could someone nonstop scold another person, their mouth not dry? sigh. I dare not even step out of the hous, coz she's screaming at the living room. Just hope that her husband will go to work, then they wouldn't have that much time together.

Friends forever!

Went to Midvalley just now to buy something, met with not one, but two of my secondary school mates! It’s like so coincident. I just bid my farewell with this friend, and then came along another friend. These are 2 friends that I lost contact for a long time, and I forgot to take their phone number. One of them mention I look fairer compare to last time, haha. It’s just that I did not walk under the sun much these few years, and I prefer to be in doors most of the times. Should have ask for their phone number, at least next time can contact. It’s not easy to meet with old friends, especially in KL. Can’t wait to be Chinese New Year, then I can meet up and just chat with them. It’s just so sad sometimes that there’s no one there to hare your happiness and sorrow. I do admit that you will have different groups of friends when you go through different stages of life, but sometimes, you do wonder what happen to all those old school mates of yours? I do hope I can keep in touch with them.

I'm a pig `@'

Been sleeping the WHOLE day today, though I've got class in the afternoon. Went to the morning classes, but have skipped the afternoon lab. I accidentally drank hot Milo in the morning, then the blood just splurt out! I can even feel the sound of it. And it hurts! This extraction hurts more than my last time operation, maybe it's near my jaw, and i can't open my mouth to eat. I can't even stick my tongue out, haha.

Heard from Lucas that his friend's room been burnt down, because she left her aromatherapy burner unattended. Everything was gone, except her wallet, phone and laptop. It's such a sad thing to hear, particularly I'm too a fan of this burner thingy. Not going to burn those aromatherapy oil anymore. It's kinda dangerous, especially my room is fill with papers and wood. I'll try to control myself. Anyway, i'm too lazy to wash the burner, haha.

Bunshinsaba

This is a korean horrow movie. It's not as scary as the Thai movie, Shutter. Though i got scared some times, but compare to Shutter, it doesn't scare me from the beginning till the end. I already knew what would happen next when i start to watch it. I have to say the ghosts here are much more pretty that the one in shutter! Pretty mum and daughter ghost. haha. Now i know how strong is one's hatred and guilt. Hope i won't have this kind of feelings in the future.

Pig head

I'm still like that, the face still swollen, but i feel better than esterday. I've stop the medication, which made me feel nausea and wanna vomit. My friend said the doctor gave me too much antibiotics, my stomach can't stand it, that's why every time after medicationa also wanna vomit. Sigh. Tooth extracted is painful alr, then the medcation not compatible make my condition worse. I'll get more advice next time if i ever wanted to extract my wisdom tooth!

These few days just lie on the bed, do nothing. Feel great, but a bit bored though. Hope will get better soon!

Ouch! My tooth!

The day started as usual. Went to classes and stuffs like that. In the afternoon i went for my wisdom tooth extraction. It was done by a year 4 student in the Dentsitry Faculty. He's not experience! Make me suffer a lot. His lecturer came to help only after i lie there for 2 and a half hours. I felt like a lab mice. I am the experiment of theirs.

After a few hours of suffering, evenhough i took 4 painkillers and my throat still hurts, i went to the emergency klinik in hospital. I cannot stand the pain! It'w not my gum that hurts, it's my gland in my throat. It's infected i'm suppose. So the doctor gave me more painkiller and more antibiotic.

I felt much better when i woke up this morning. At least i can swallow my own saliva. Yesterday was like, i can't even close my mouth, and the saliva keep coming out! I look like a mental retarded female, with my swollen lips and dripping saliva.

Piece of advice, don't ever go to those university hospital to get your tooth extracted, especially by those students. I regreted. Should have paid few hundred to go to those private dentist. But then, if want me to pay, i might not even want to extract it! Just let it be la. haha

Flies!

I'm doin a lab work on flies. They're not house flies, but lab flies. It's for knowing the genetics and bla bla bla of the flies. It's like so gross. You need to rear them inside squash banana, and need to wait for a week for them to hatch. It's so smelly! I nearly faint, coz we need to immobilize the flies with eter, but then i think i'm the one who faint, not the flies.

Just hope this goes smoothly.

No water supply!

I came back at 9.30, and I saw some workers are digging at the main road near my place. I had a really bad feeling about it, and it turn out true, there's no water supply in my place! They're working on it! How could this happen? I smell like salted fish, and all i want to do is to have a nice shower, and just continue to study a little bit. I'm smelly! I stink! I can't be like this for the whole night, can't even sleep like that. I'll wait for my friends to be back home. Then i can find a place to bath, but what trouble me is that, they all stay near my place. I'm scare they too don't have water supply! Then i really need to find a way to find water supply. If not, i just don't know what can i do alr.

MLM

I know a lot of people will be avoiding those who said they're in direct sales, even friends. I'll avoind 2 kind of person, 1 is direct sellers, another is insirance agents, even if they are my friends. But yesterday, I'd follow a friend of mine to meet a girl who had been working in this pyramid for a long time. Before she decided to do full time, she's a group leader in Intel (M), her salary is quite high, and she's very very smart (think she got 4A 1B for her STPM). She talk al ot about how the MLM works, and that we should start to plan our future now. She talk a lot of things except the product that she's selling. This gets me think : Is this the new tactic that they're using to attract people to join them? She's not asking me to join them, she just ask me what's my future plans, and she ask me to continue what i am doing. I'm mesmerize by her. But i'm not ready to commit into another thing for the time being, but i will remember her.

Good

Been chatting with a friend since 6pm when we're having dinner, till 12am, finished after we went to mamak for a drink. I feel so good! We just keep talking about all the things that we love and loke. I feel very happy, after one week busy with my won work, then got the opportunity to talk to someone. It's like, I'm very happy that i can find someone who have the same opinion as me, who also have the same kind of thinking as me. She's not totally like we, sometimes we also disagree on some particular things. It's just so good to just talk and don't have to worry that you're going to offend her. I can talk whatever i want. That's the best feeling any human can have!

How Come?

Accordint to plan, i should go to have and x-ray of my teeth this morning. But they displaced my folder AGAIN! Last time thay LOST my folder! Now they don't know where's my folder again. I'm not that angry as like last time. Maybe it's that I already prepared that my folder will get lost again, since it is passed through a lot of division. Today i got the guts to ask for wisdom tooth extraction, but all the lecturer are booked, so i was given a student instead. THe appointment is next thursday, just hope there won't be any problem then.

Also had a chat with an experience lab assistant, then we talk about the banners that my university hanged everywhere. He only said one word, ego. They do like this to boost their ego. It's just so true. We inside the uni know the truth, but those outside of it will think that we're really good. Just hope that a lot more people can get to know the truth.

Saying about that ranking, how can they get it since this uni cannot handle the online registration? They limit out credit hours to 18, but when we apply for extra credits, they took ages to process! I aaply last tuesday, only today, more than one week later only they approve! It's not even they approve, I went to fuss at the Dean's office. It's like, the system's suppose to make our life easier, but following this system, i feel very unsecure, coz i can't register the course that i want. Sometimes the manual registration do have it cons, but at least during that time i can confirm that i got a place in the course that i want. Just hope next registration will be better

p/s : they can't handle it, and they extend the add and drop until this sunday, supposely today's the last day. Imagine, the last day, then my application still haven approve!

What is Life?

I've been thinking about this topic the whole day. I ust can't figure out what kind of life i really want in the future. Yes I did talk about masters phd bla bla bla, but I really am not sure whether that is THE ONE i really want. It's just that for the time being i'm thinking of doing research, and the road to phd is the only path that people pay me to do what i really like to do. Maybe in the next 5 years, i feel bored with all these, and i turn to do other things. It's so confusing. My friends say they admire me, for i already have plans for my future. But to me, plans are plans, they can always be changed. I always tell them, 2 years later i might be doing other things, like a beautician? aromatherapist? Pet shop owner? Cafe owner? Or I might be working in StarBucks. Who knows what will happen in the future? Someday I might get so bored with science, that i will turn to something totally different from science. I think a lot, not about my studies, mostly about all these things. I used to be very sure that i wanna further studies, but after all my results turn out to be very bad, i kinda doubt my own abilities, whether i'm the kind of material to further studies. A lot would say results don;t matter much, but sadly, it's the first thing that people judge you - whether you are `good' or `bad' student. It's life, i can;t complain about it. Just hope after this semester, i will get better results. I won't hope, i'll study harder. Saying about of studying, i didn't study today. haha

Different View

There was something different when I went to uni this morning. It was the view! There were a lot of plastic banner, on EACH AND EVERY street light pole and electricity pole! The banner's about `XX is voted one of the top 100 uni in the world!'. It's a good thing that this uni is voted in, but is it necessary to tie so much banner on each and every pole there is in the uni? To me, this is what i call `SS' - Syiok sendiri. This is just self proud. Just want to let the whole world to know about this news. I do wonder what are the criterias that the universities were being judged of. I'm not saying that we're not good, but I really do wonder. There're a lot of other universities which is better than this one, but how come they do not get it? My division is good, but I must complain about the management of this particular university. I just don't understand why it is getting it. I'm so shock when i got to know it, and the first thing that i thought is that it's not real. I'm not being mean, it's just that fact. The quality of this uni has degraded. And i'm very sad about it. Hope one day i can come back and help.