Clear Blue Sky

I notice how blue the sky is when I'm driving to work this morning. It's been such a long time since i saw such blue sky. It's either not haze, or raining. I love clear blue sky. Make me feel vey optimistic, make me feel good. I sure hope everyday's weather is that good.

What am I doing?

I'm in a trance. I'm reading another Dan Brown book, Angels and Demons. This is also good, but don't know why, I still prefer Da Vinci Code. This book has too much science in it. I don;t understand physics. And some more, the Head saw me just now absorbed in this book! He peep through the window! I didn't notice him. haha. Guess that explains what I'm doing all the while, when I have nothing to do. Just hope he won't get angry, he knew I got nothing to do what. haha. Damn I love these books!

What have you learnt today?

After being in a meeting for more than 4 hours, that's the loudest message i can get from all the talking from the Head of the Centre. What have i learnt today i wonder? Everyday we're in a constant changing world, and I suppose change is th only stagnant thing that will be happening in our lifes. I guess the thing that i learned today is that, the PFGE is used in molecular epidemiology analysis of the out break of the typhoid in Kelantan. Other than that, I don't have a clue what he's talking about! Shouldn't have gone. I'm the only student attached there. I really don't have any busines there. And the Head asked me questions. I can answer some, but not all. He's evaluating i see. Just hope i've passed his standards.

The Da Vinci Code (Dan Brown)

I'm reading this book right now, and I can't keep my eyes off it. I totally absorbed into it. I finish like 400 pages in half a day time? Might be 10 hours? I'm jus here to praise it! IT's GOOOOOOODDDDD!!!!!!! GOOD GOOD GOOD!

A new place!

Went to meet the big boss this morning for his signature, then he suddenly told me that there's someone in another unit who's going DNA fingerprinting and typing, and I might be interested in. Of course I am! Then he wrote a memo to the person in charge, stating that I am to go there to learn the method (or at least have a look of what thery are doing). After I'm there, the Doctor in charge accepted me, but the person who's doing the thing keep fussing:how busy she was, how annoying it was to have students tagging along, and I should have written in in a PROPER CHANEL to apply to come into the lab bla bla bla..... then the doctor shower her the memo, and straight away she shut up (coz the memo from the boss in hte most proper chanel, haha), and she start accusing me for not telling her that there's a memo from the boss (coincidently the big boss of my unit is also the temporary big boss for this unit). You keep talking, I don't have any chance to say anything! Even the doctor had no chance to talk. Finally, she told me to go back to find her in 2 week's time (even though she said this very very unwillingly) But then, I'll be finishing my trainig in another 2 weeks time! That means I'm going to miss it.

Then I'm taken to another lab, where there's someone doing another thing-the DNA fingerprinting of S.typhi. At least I got something to learn, and got some more things to write in my report. Damn! I haven't start writing the report le! Need to start off these few days, if not I won't haave enough time to finish it.

Oouch!!

I opend the door. I stepped inside. I'm in high spirit. I yelled `I'm back!' Then I look at my supervisor. He's acting quite strangely. I don't know why. Then I noticed-his belt is loosen, and his pants is unzipped! The first thing i thought:aiks, is he doing THAT thing in the office ar? Then he told me his zip is broken, and I'm so embarassed! Luckily his shirt is long, can cover up everything. Then i can't help but laugh, coz I'm too embarassed to say anything. I can't do anything to help him, then a collegue of his came back, and she has a pin. Lucky for him. If not he has to hold his pants for the rest of the day, and there's a meeting later!

Cuba to conduct vaccine trials in Malaysia

This is the news that i read this morning. Cuba is going to conduct clinical trials here.

I don't know how to feel. Do they know what's the meaning of this? I've always thought that developed countries go to undeveloped countries to do clinical trials, because they never know what's the outcome of the trials, and the people that accept the treatment can't do anything about it. I feel like this is making our country looks like an undeveloped country. “Cuba feels that our country is unique for conducting clinical trials because we abide by global standards and because of the composition of our society,” This is what out PM said. I feel that we're becomong the quinea pigs of their trials. White mice. We do not know what the vaccines contained, they won't disclose it. This is the procedure. What if they test harmful things on us? Sure they'll pay the test subjects some money, and if they do not know that it's a test, they thought it's good deal! I'm scared the vaccines is something that will last in out country. How could this be hapenning to our country? If the vaccines is so good, why didn't they do it on their own people? Why didn't they conduct it on their neighbouring country? Why? DO THEY EVER THINK THIS BEFORE SIGNING THE AGREEMENT?

Monday blues.....

I've always had monday blues. I really don't like mondays, especially after my training, feel very bored, restrected. I hate mondays! Just feel like staying at home, don't wanna come out from my bed, especially I slept at 3 yesterday......

Can't online these few days, the service provider's server had been struke by lightning! Ciplak~~~ Every week there seems to be a few days I can't online, if calculate like this, there'll be more than 10 days I can't online in a month! Rugi betul lah......... But then what to do? They're the ONLY provider there..... Have to bear with it.

This morning I've noticed a Naza Ria with number plate 4747.... I bet the owner is a Malay or an Indian. I mean, how could any chinese have the guts to use this number? First it's 4, means `die'. Then it's 7, means `dick'. The combination is `die dick die dick'! I don't think there will ever be any chinese who wants that kind of number....I just want to laugh when i first saw it just now. haha.

This is the 6th week of my training, and there's another 3 more weeks then i will be off from this place. Now i start to worry bout my report-what should i write? wat can i write? I have no idea..... Because I have done NOTHING here! die man.......

Borders

Today's friday, had my long lunch break, went to Times Square with my group of friends, coz we all heard that The Borders Bookstore is opened! It is so called the largest bookstore in the world, but I personally think, the place is big, but the volume of books can't match One Utama's MPH, which is also double storey, with a lift service in the middle of the store.

I've bought 3 books, which are in promotion- 3 for the proce of 2. Very happy. I can still smell the scent of new books. Happy happy. I can enjoy this weekend after all. Hope i won't finish them that fast, if not these few weeks I don't have any other things to do liao.

Change Face

We're chatting happily. We're talking bout the same topic. We're laughing on the same mistakes that we've done. Suddenly her face change. I don't know why. What had i said? I just mention that she need to read more on a certain topic. Then her whole face change. And she keep quiet for the rest of the journey. We're on our way to have our lunch. How can we eat when someone's there constantly showing their angry face to you? How can someone be so sensitive? I didn't like said directly on to her face, i mention it in a humourous way. She felt offended, that's for sure. Amybe I'm not her, I can't get it. Then later her friends told me, her attitude is like that. Hyper sensitive, when things about her studies are related. To me, it's just nothing. I know my results are like that. I can't do much about it alr. Just try my best to improve. No need to see the grades so great is it??? Sorry to say, but she's just so damn KIASU la....... I know grades are important, but it doesn't represent everything right...... I just don't know. Maybe different people different perception. Ah well, I won't talk anything about grades next time in front her...

Why are you always like that?

"Eh, I'm going out yumcha with xx and his group of friends later ah...."

"Why geh? I thought you said his group of friends all very lansi and just love to show off??"

"aiya, you don't understand wan la. He asked me what, what to do, have to go la...."

"eh, just said you're not free la, you need to accompany me la, whatever la, can what.... "

"You don't understand wan la, he asked me....."

I think you're the one who don't understand. You talked how bad his group of friends, how they show off, how they talk bad of each other when last time you yumcha with them, but now when your friend give you a call, you rushed to their side. I think you're the one who don't understand. This is nothing about status ok. You won't be one of them eventhouugh how much time you spent with them. They are born to a wealthy family. They have a few platinum cards to use in their wallet. They can enjoy all the things that money can buy, they can afford it. But you're not. You can't afford it. You will never be one of them. How can I let you understand this? You will never be one of them. Even when you're with them, they just look down on you. Because you're not one of them. This is the cold hard truth of life.

I really love the smell of freshly cut grass. Don't know why, just love the smell of it, especially when there's someone cutting it, and I'm standing beside the field, taking deep breathes. It's so refreshing! I love green grass! But please don't ask me to eat grass! I can't stand the taste of it (eventhough i haven't tray any).

Got a shock just now, I''ve been scold by a junior officer who's way younger than me. I'm talking with a friend, who's collecting reading for the sound analysis, then she just scold us for talking, which will intefere with the reading. She's not taking any reading that time, she had just finished. Another thing is, she's a NOBODY! Not even a senior officer! Not even our supervisor, she got no rights to scold us like that. She thinks she's an officer there, she can simply just let out her anger towards us, who are students attached to this place? Even the unit's head never scold me before! I just don't know why. She's not yet the head, and yet what she's doing she acts as if she is. She's just 1 rank higher than us, and the last in the list. Everybody else scold her, and she can only scold us. But this is not fair to us! How can this happening to us?

Not Pretty Enough

Suddenly found this song in my computer, sze sent to me wan. It's by Kasey Chambers, and I really like her voice, and the lyrics. Not pretty enough, it's not I'm ugly, but not pretty enough. How can one be pretty enough? Think more plastic surgeries will help, haha.

The big big pimples on my face had healed, but left some very ugly scars, marks behind. Now it looks like I've got a very big mole on my cheek, and there's a lot of marks on my nose and fore head. I've been very hard working (aka applying mask every day) but how come the marks still won't fade away? No more self esteem, when I go out like this. No wonder those people with bad skin feel so bad, now I know. Only 1 big pimple (and some small ones) make me feel so bad, I can't imagine those with really bad skin. I need to work harder i guess, apply more mask and moisturizer!

Is this true?

I've been very very free yesterday, so free until I went to read forums. I usually went to other forums, but yesterday I clicked into the `Love' section. There're so much posts there! Compare to other places, the replaying posts there are fast, long and a lot. Hmm, guess that this Love thing is the problem of a lot of people, especially in this big city. The whole day I just sat there, reading through all the posts. Some wrote in their story, some just wanna find new friends, some are healing their wounds by writing their stories..... Some of it is just like a soap opera, but then it might be true. Blame it on the cyber world. We eon't know whether it's true, but the forumers there just give their symphathy, and help with each other. It'll be quite sad and annoying, if we ever find out that some of their `life' is just a make up. I'll be angry for sure. It's like, we can't talk this with someone else, we definitely can't talk with parents (especially of you're still a teenager), so the forum is a good place to voice out your thought, and get support. It's more like a support group, for people to heal. Guess I've fouund a great place to voice my thoughts.

You think you own this ar?

Woke up late this morning, so don't have time to pump petrol. The needle is touching the big E, but have to rush to office. I'm so scared my car would just stop in the middle of the road because the petrol had finished! Luckily it manage to go quite some distance, can tahan till the nearest station. But then encounter a very rude worker at the B* Petrol Station near the Telekom Tower (btw, Telekom had lanched their new logo, looks like tmnet's logo), he snaps at anyone who's in front of him! They are using the very primitive system, whereby you pay the worker there, and they'll punch in the amount of petrol on the machine itself. Aren't all petrol station are required to fix the system where all the petrol kiosks are controlled by the main cashier? It's been a long time since i pump petrol like that. Another guy beside me try to ask him for direction, and he just snaps back :`you no eye see ar?!!!!! see for yourself lar!!! @#$%'. I mean, that guy is asking very nicely for direction, can't you just reply? If you don't feel like replying, can't just point it or what? No one ask you to open your mouth what...... Then it's my turn: 'you didn't see i'm standing here ar? why wanna walk there? you no need think! YOU PAY HERE!' wa lau eh! As if he owns the petrol station! If not my car no petrol, i straight away step into the car and ciao. What the f***, i'm the customer le, can't just keep your mouth shut? as if I'm 3 year old and need some lesson from you. I'm not the only one, after my turn another bus driver also kena gao gao from him. Aiks, no wonder that petrol station don't have much sales. It's in a very strategic place, but every time i see there's not much car there. Ah well, it's a pity though, that he's going be working there for the rest of his life. haha

F*** off biatch!!!!!

Why can't she just leave us alone? We're just there to do our training! And we'll be out of your site for another 4 weeks! (in the mean time cheer for me! this is the 4th week already!) and I'll only be there for 1 week! Cn't she just leave us alone? She start talking bad about us to whoever she saw. And the words came back to us quite quick. That lab is not THAT BIG...... How could this happening to us? I mean, we didn't do anything wrong, we try to be nice, and yet she complain here complain there. If you so good, just go and complain to the head, and let the head come and scold us. what the heck start spreading bad words to all other labbies? wanna boycot us is it? We're just students training there, and who do you think you are? Just a staff, even the head didn't say anything about me being there for a week! She act as if she OWNS the WHOLE lab. I dispised this kind of person. If she got guts, just come and tell us in front f our face. phew!!! I'm pissed by this kind of attitude! I know you're OLD!! you don't have to show me your POWER! I know what you MANAGE to do! on the other hand, when i think more, i can only say she's not capable of doing any OTHER thing! Just sit there and goyang kaki, boil telephone porridge, and start criticizing every other thing and person that's in the lab. I'm just tired of her. I won't be in that lab from tomorrow onwards. Makes me furious!!! I'll be going back to my own lab, then I'll ask the smart senior technician to teach me things, at least let me have a look by the side, gain some knowledge. Better than sit at anoter lab, hoping to learn things, but then let people kutuk all the way! FEDUP lar....

Who do you think you are?

Got a bit pissed today, by someone who thinks that she's very importhat. I'm currently attached to another unit, where by I've already gained the permission of my unit's head, that unit's head, and the person in charged of all the student's posting in that place. And out of no where, this woman came up to ma and asked : where you from wan? And it's like, HELLO! I'm not resopnsible towards you! I mean, it's my mistake that I didn't imtroduce myself to all the lab personel when i came in yesterday, but then, everyone was busy with their own stuff, and it'll be a bit rude for me to just go up and say i'm new there! and i'm only going to be there for 1 week! I've already got the permission from the unit's head! Even all the heads have aprroved, and she's there like : no no no, you can't just hop from lab to lab like this, bla bla bla.... then she go tell to EVERYONE in that lab that I've done wrong and things like that...... sigh. i just don't know why there's anyone so free to do this kind of things. I've done the things in the official manner, it's just that I didn't introduce myself when I went into the lab, coz everyone is busy then. when they are free, in reture i'm busy. I'm just a bit angry at how can she act like that, and go gossip to all other labbies there. It just annoyed me. If they can use that time to do some other things, I think that place won't be that lag behind!

Ah well, i think i have to pretend there's just a biatch barking all along then. no need to bother too much. she's not my supervisor anyway. just scared she'll start complaining to EVERY other unit, then i won't have to opportunity to go other places to have a look.

Can I share it ar?

I've noticed some interesting site when I'm having my breakfast just now. I saw a couple sharing a small plate of roti canai, and a small cup of teh tarik. And it suddenly struck me, it's only done newly attached couples. Try doing that after you've been together for a few years, when you both are in the comfort zone. "why you finish my roti canai?"; "I order another for you la!"; "yer, look as if you so broke no money buy to eat" and etc etc etc. It's like showing the whole world that you're together, both of you have to be seen as AN item together. You won't be doing when you've been together for a few years. And I also noticed, when you're in the comfort zone, you tend to neglect a lot of things, esp your appearance (don't bother too much about it, coz you alr found some one who wants you :D). I don't want to turn into a big fat biatch, think I need to take good care of my looks, and my dressing. I don't want ppl think that I'm married!

Drift King

Went to some where in Sunway just now, and there's some drifter there performing, and competing. I can feel the adrenaline rush within myself, and i feel so excited! There's so much people there, and I found out that, someone who looks nerdy might not be what you think he is. There's a nerdy-look-boy who's a very good drifter (he looks like those book worms that can score straight A in whatever exams, with his t-shirt and shorts). so the moral behind this story, never judge a book by its cover. and another conclusion: they are RICH! if not, they won't be able to drive like that. see, money rulz....

What's the skin care you are using?

I've been quite busy these few months, busy until I don't have time to take a good look at my own face. I got the time yesterday, have the time to look hard into the mirror. I'm horrified to see my skin's dull, lifeless, and there's a lot of pimples, white heads and bloak heads all over my face! Gosh! I've neglected my skin for so long! How counld this be happening to me? i've been lazy for the pass few months, and it starts showing all on my face. I'm even lazy to clean my face with proper cleanser, i just splash some water, and that's consider clean (see, that's how lazy i am). I have to work harder from now on, to stable back my skin's condition, to achieve back the smooth and glowing skin i used to have. It's such pity.

Bad Luck

I don't have any luck yesterday i guess. When I'm back, I noticed the whole clothes rail had fall off from the balcony of my place! It's like so high here! The good news is that luckily it didn't hit anyone who's passing by, because it's hanging on a tree! With my intimate clothing hanging from the branches, and I'm not tall enough to get it all. Lucas had to use a ladder and a stick to get everything back down. Such a hassle. I don't quite know how the thing can fall off. The second thing is, I forgot to close my room's window, and it's flooded! Every afternoon it rains in KL these few weeks, and I forgot to close my window! how could this 2 things happen to me in the same day? I just think my luck is bad bad bad these few days, and i can't anything about it. Ah well, lucky nothing burnt, coz there's an extension wire excactly under the window, and it's full of water when i found out the windown's not closed. i suppose this is the little luck i have when i met with bad luck. Think i should feel lucky la, haha.

Salt crystal lamp

This is yet another of those boring days, where by I come to work hoping it's lunch, after lunch I long for 4pm so i can go back home. It's making my life miserable. It seems like every now and then i keep complaining about it, but I do think this will be good training for me, though I can't get hands on the lab work. I still haven't go apply to attach another division, coz my supervisor's going to present tomorrow, hope everything will be alright, then the project can start soon. It's ok for me to just sit here, not being productive, but I'm scared i don't have anything to write in the report I need to hand in to the university. Except stating these few weeks I've been doing literature review only, and I don't think that's an impressive report.

The senior technician brought me to the market this morning, and the things there are cheap! I mean, if compare to PJ, they are cheap. I'll try to coax my friends to go there to have lunch these few days, just for the sake of a change of environment. As i say, everyday's work is the same, I'll be bored to death if there's nothing new!

I've got a sudden interest in salt crystal lamp, and i got to know that it's a natural deionizer. It's kinda benificial if it's situated near human. How good if i can get a cheap lamp, but i'm scared it is of inferior quality. I"ve been browsing through all those web sites, and a medium lamp cost around USD40-50. It's expensive!

And there goes another week....

I've been here for 2 weeks, and yet everyday is the same old s***, it's quite exhausting for me, though I'm not doing ANYTHING practically. It just makes me wonder, how long do I have to be like this? I just hope I can generate some thing out of this attachment.

I woke up really late this morning, and I arrived late. I'm suppose to start work at 7.30am, but an officer told me that there's another shift at 8.15am, so i thought I've made it through, since i arrive at 8.15. But later I found out I can't just simply change my shift, it need to be done in a month's time! So i'm consider late for work (very late indeed) today. I still don't know what should I do with it, and I still do not know what will happen to me. Finger crossed.

I've been helping my sister to feed her pets when she's not around for the weekend, and I do enjoy it :) It feel so relax just to watch the fish swim, though the angelfish don't move quite a lot. Been planning to get myself an aquarium, and i need to find some hardy fish that can survive without me paying much attention to them. But it'll cost me quite a bomb when i want to start it. I'll try to figure what can i do, and in the meantime i'll just go play with my sister's pets, haha.