The kiasu-ism of malaysian chinese

“Har, no chairs ar?” “You sit on the floor lor!” “ha ha ha ha” “%#@*&% you sit on the floor lar, i take your place!”

This is the conversation of some of the students in the same class as me just now. Then bang bang bang, they took some chairs from the back of the room, and just squeeze in the aisle of the room, which is directly in front of the lecturer and between 2 rows of chairs. It is like, do they need to be THAT kiasu? I’m sitting on the second row, there’re still a few places beside and behind me, do they need to squeeze in between a little place like that, not one, but 5 or 6 of them! We have to move to the side for them, and they mess up the place, which later we seniors will get the blame! They NEVER rearrange back the chairs, and we’re the one who do that. Sure they might say they need to record down the lecture (which I have never done in my whole uni life!), but they can just pass the recorder to front and sit a little further at the back, beside it’s only 30 of us in the class. I can’t express my feelings. I just feel as university students, we can’t be that selfish and rude. Sure they’re smart and the lecturer’s favourites, but then I don’t really admire them. With this kind of attitude, it’s hard for me to like them. Do hope that I won’t turn into someone like that, I admit sometimes I’m very kiasu, but to a certain extend. I’m still a little bit more considerate. I will still take care of the feelings of others. They have been like that since the first lecture during October, and I think they won’t change a bit. It’s very degrading, to see the students from the so-called most prestige university in this country act like that. What to do? Maybe it’s a Chinese thingy. I’m a Chinese too! Therefore I must be very kiasu. haha

A very good morning

This is a very beautiful morning, the sun is big and orange in colour. Maybe this is because the weather is quite hazy, that’s why the sun is like that, and the sky looks very romantic. This makes me feel very calm and happy. Coz it really is beautiful. Just notice that we as human should not ask too much from life, we can be happy from little things in life. A beautiful weather like this can really boost my energy and make me energise the whole day! We should be contended with little things in life.

Stuck!

I'm stuck in the middle of preparing my thesis. I am at the last chapter, which is the discussion, and i;ve worked for a few days alr to settle it, but then i still can't do it. I do not have any idea how to start, and how to discuss my project! Moreover i need to quote other people's work to support my theory. It's the hardest part, and i wist to hand it in next monday, not to mention my printer broke down! Haven't buy a new one, think will be going to Low Yat tomorrow afternoon after my classes to buy one there. Think will be cheaper (I hope).

Just chat with Lucas, and he don't really believe in feng shui. Anyway, I'm still going to put all the stuffs around the place, no matter he believe or not. Will just tell him there're decorative items. Beside, they look really nice in brass colour. It's a pair of qilin (which is 2 inches tall), and a dragon with a golden ball (which is 4 inches tall). They're nice.

Do you believe in Feng Shui?

I think in the english speaking community the feng shui thing has been made popular by a very well known chinese lady. But then, some of my chinese speaking friends said she's just there to earn westerner's money. haha. I don't know whether should i believe in it. This year's the Rooster year, and it's qiote a bad year for rooster, coz we offend the Grand Duke Jupiter (what we call the Tai Shui), and it brings bad luck the whole year long. Several years back same thing happen, and i do remember there's a lot of misfortunes happen to me that year.

So this year, believe it or not, i'll be decorating my place following some of the frng shui tips (not from that famous lady, mind you). Hopefully I'll get a prosperous year ahed!

Oh gosh!

Haven got the chance to update these few days, been quite busy, and tired. Seems like that the only things that I do is thesis, and trying to figure out how to move all my stuffs to the new place.

Watched National Treasure the other day, not bad actually, but I did expect more action packed than this. The beginning was quite slow, especially after they found the ship, but then later turn out better. Waiting for the sequel, hope it will be more like Indiana Jones, more action. Really need to mention the supporting actor (what’s his name??) he’s really funny! Think he will be acting in more films.

I’m at One Utama’s Popular book store just now, and there’s a fight between the cashier (a malay man) and his supervisor (a malay lady). The cashier is actually serving a customer, then he just shout out in some malay (which I don’t understand) then ends with `stupid, stupid’. The customer is so dumb folded! Then the supervisor came over to scold him, then they just fight in the middle of a quiet book store! It’s like, can’t they just go inside the office or some where else to fight? It’s such a bad impression to the customers! The lady kept demand an apology, but from what I can get from the fight, it’s her actually that started all of it. Such a sorry sight. They just kept arguing there. All other workers just stand there and enjoy the scene, and no one tried to help or try to calm both of them down.

And another thing, I just don’t know how long should I wait until I can happily chew fried chicken! I realized today that I can’t even bite a soft burger! My front teeth not only hurts, they don’t meet! How am I going to bite food if they do not meet each other? I tear off the burger! Not bite, but tear! Imagine that! And my friend mention my braces looked like Chinese fire crackers! Long and red. Haha.

It's huge!

I've tried to figure out how much i need to spend at least when the time i move out, and it's huge! There's a lot of hidden costs, and I've never thought bout that. It's not as easy and as simple as just move. There's a lot of other things that need to consider. Of course, the price, then there's other things, bills?? Furniture? Electrical appliances? After some mates, the costs is huge! I really need to save, especially my ang pow money, haha.

`You looked awful!'

I've been getting this kind of comments and remarks these few days after I have done my braces. I'd even scared a cashier just now at Carrefour when i smiled to him. Can't people be more creative? I'm getting a red colour band on my braces because chinese new year is approaching. I'll change it a more conservative colour next time, since RED colour is too striking for some of ya, especially that Lucas, who kept making fun of my braces. I had no choice ok! I have to do it. Who wants to be called`iron teeth girl' when she's already 23? I dare not even think when i put on lipstick! And this treatment will last 2 years.

I'll change it to another colour, i promise.

And the days go on

Been trying very hard to do my thesis, but then my teeth felt like all wanna drop off. The braces is pushing so hard, and i felt like i was punched in the mouth, then the teeth like falling off. I can't stand the pain! And the point is, I CAN'T EAT! That's the most horrible thing! I want to eat! I'm so hungry! I can't chew, and can only have porridge or oats. This can't fill my stomach, i'm a carnivorous kind of a person. I need meat. I want burger! Just hope this pain will go off in few days time. I can't stand it if can't eat. When i extract my tooth last time, it's just one part of the mouth is painful, i still can eat. Now????!!! All pain! Regret. Pay money then need to suffer too. sigh.

The complexity of putting braces

I’ve got my braces done today, the pain is much less than I got my teeth extracted. I thought it’s just an easier procedure, but then I lie down there for 1 hour, just for putting on all the semen on my teeth. I chose a red rubber band! Coz Chinese New Year is approaching! At first thought red and gold, but then will look quite weird, so just took 1 colour. Now I can’t close my mouth! And my coursemate commented that I look like Donald duck, with my mouth pointing out now. I can’t even smile with my mouth close. I think I just have to be patient, and wait for 2 years. The doctor said this treatment will take round 2 years, if everything alright. I feel like I got punched in the mouth, with all the tooth pressured back into my mouth. It’s not painful, but very troublesome. Just hope that everything will go on smoothly.

Finally.....

Finally, after so much work, searching and scouting, i've found a place. It's not the best, but can be consider quite ok. Had just been to that place to have a look, quite satisfied with it, will confirm with the agent tomorrow, then hopefully can move in by the end of this month. I need to settle all this as soon as possible, if not I can't concentrate on my work, and i need to and in that thesis end of this month. Hopefully everything will go on smoothly, and I won't have any more headaches on this matter.

Finger crossed.

Busy busy

Thought I can finish some part of my thesis this weekend, but I'm quite busy, not with my work, but busy scouting for a place. Been following some of my friend's recommendation, out searching in some other places that I've never thought before. I'm very grateful with my friends, they helped a lot with my searching, continously giving ideas, and accompanying me to have a look at some of the place. With all these, i still have time to go shopping with a friend yester, and at last I bought the KL and Klang Valley map, which cost me about 50. I think is a quite good investment, coz I'm using it to search for places to stay! Lucky i got this map, I didn't get lost in Taman Desa this afternoon. Found a few apartments and condo there, but heard that this place is quite jam during office hours. Ah well, i just need to find as much place as possible. Then only i can make comparisons. I just can't limit myself to one option, what if this fail? Then i have no place to stay!

Thesis thesis...............

Just got a shock when my coursemate that we need to hand in the first draft this week! I haven even finish half of it! Eventhough some of my group have finished, and plan to hand it in next week, but that's not my problem. I just need to do things my pace, but then i never thought that i need to hand in this week! Ans writing a thesis is so damn HARD! I kept writing and deleting, writing and deleting. I just cant be satisfy with what i've written. I'm terrified! All of them have finished, and I'm still half way. I'm nervous, feel very pressured. This morning till afternoon just sit in front of the comp, but i can't write even 1 page of it out! It's just SO HARD! I really have to finish at least the first 3 parts by this weekend, if not i don't think i can finish by time. Think will do as fast as possible, then hand it in for check.

Just now went to Ikea, haha. Go around see all those furniture, feel very good. Though the time i'm there is not long, but also feel happy. The things are so nice! Good good good. When i move and have my own place, i'll try to get all my furniture from ikea.

It's So Hot!

This is the first month of 2005, and the first national problem happened. Power failure happened in whole of KL, Selangor, Melaka, and Johor. There's no electricity for about 3 to 4 hours. I'm so hot! It's already hot in the afternoon during lunch time, then there's no power! I can't even on my computer. Luckily the power came back quite fast, and not like few years back where I need to wait for few days. I do hope this will never happen again. Heard the biggest generator in Klang was down, and that affect half of Peninsular Malaysia. This makes me think, if there is no electricity in the future, I think I won't be able to survive a day. The thing that made me s worried is that my cell phone was out of power! The battery was low, and it will off in half an hour times'. I'd forgot to charge it, again. My phone's down, then there's no fan, no light, everything that i use need electricity to run. I'm stuck! I can't do anything! Except slee, but it's so hard, i can hardly have a nap. I'm lucky. It's not that long. And lucky Wan Utama still have electricity, i can still go there for the afternoon and evening. Lucky lucky, haha. Not like all the shopping complexes in KL, which are in total dark. I'm lucky.

Is it THAT hard?

Been trynig my luck to look for a good unit these few days, and it turn out quite well. This calling of the agents had made me wonder, should I just go for a more expensive unit but more accessible place? There are loads of places in the more isolated places (not to say isolate, it's just that it's not that accessible), and the ren't just different for 100. Makes me start thinking, and it's just headache. Well, as cantonese saying, `boat until jetty will get straight' haha, so I think I will sort it out.

Chromosomes Abnormalities

Just had a class in human cytogenetics, then notice a lot of those mental retardation cases are from human sex chromosomes abnormalities, eg more sex chrmomsomes, less chromosomes. As if it's their characteristic that most of them will have mental retardation. And there's even once a study on those criminals who are violent, that that have extra copies of the Y chromosomes. (which is the so called the man chromosome). And most of these men are sterile. I think this is a way of God's to prevent any offspring from them. I learn more, and yet i know so little. It's utterly amazing how's human body works, especially in the case of the genes, the function of it, and all sort of other things that fascinated me. Human genes! Amazing!

It's a hoax!

Been contacting a lot of people today, trying to get a suitable unit. At last we settle on one, which offer the least, and we agreed to have a look at the place. At first the owner said 9.30pm, coz he's still very very busy playing golf! Then when it's that time, he called again to say need to make it to 10.30pm, coz he haven't finished. Then when it's 10.30, he said he's still on the way. Ok, we waited for him coz the price he offered is low (actually bit him who offere, it's his wife). When we're there, he keep forcing us to rent it and put our deposit. Ok, when we decided to rent it, he told us the rent is not what the one that the wife said, it's actually 200 more! If it's like that, i can get a better unit with a better view! It's just like fooling us around, how could it be like that? Luckily I did mention the rent, if not we will not known, and we can't do anything when we agreed to sign the agreement. He wasted our whole night's time, summo keep showing off here saying he need to settle this as soon as possible, coz `his wife keep pestering him, and he can't PLAY GOLF!' What kind of excuse is this? It's just too bad, coz he keep saying there's someone willing to move in tomorrow, and he's willing to pay higher price, but he's quite reluctant to rent it to that person, coz it's through an agent. And he's going to lose a month's rent for that. I personally think that, coz the agent promise him a higher rent, that's why he's raising it. I thought it will be more ok if we deal with the owner, but I think better for me to deal with the agent next time. No more like this. I feel like I've got cheated. Wasted my time. I'll take this as a lesson. Next time anyone tell me he's not free coz he's playing golf, i'm not going to entertain him!

Why is it like this?

I just don't know why, whether it's my hormonal changes, or is it that both of us are in bad bad mood. I won't ask why, because i know i will never get an answer. I know it will just make me more frustrated. I just don't know how to handle the conflict we had. It's just so sad. I try to communicate, but without any success. Is it my problem, or is it our problem? I think i have to think hard, to try to solve the problem. I try to reach out, but the bridge is not there. I have to work really hard then. I just don't know why i am treated this way.

Been online this whole afternoon, for more than 4 hours, and I'm still using dialup! Wow! Next month's bill will be huge~.~ And i'm not going to stay here next month. Just hope I won't bring any problem that time.

Still scounting around

It's been raining for the whole day, and it really makes me moody. Can't concentrate on writing my thesis, i'm just want to go out and have some fresh air. But then, time's running out, and I really need to finish it within this month, and I'm not even half way through! Still a long way to go. Just hope i can pull things together. In the mean time, I think i need to rest. (Did i mention I'm a lazy pig?)

Been out scounting for a suitable place with Lucas just now, and found some really nice place, but need some traveling. I still can't decide which to choose : Cheaper but need to travel, or near but bit expensive? I've been thinking quite some time, and stilll can't decide. Just hope things will work out fine. And i hope i can move out from here as soon as possible!

Explorer

For these few days, the only website that i visited was The Star Classifieds, Window's Update, and excite.com. I'm trying to figure out which place should i move. I'm looking for a place which is convenient, and quiet, and not that congested. But then, things are not always as you hope for. I'm beginning to feel exhausted, eventhough i only look for the place online! Moving is just so troublesome, and I'm a pazy pig. It makes me headache when i think of packingup my belingings, not to mention I don't have any furniture! All my clothes and other stuffs, i think i'll need a lorry to carry it all. Sigh. Just duno't know how will i manage it. Think i just need to call a few of my friends to help me pack and carry. haha. That's what friends are for ma.

Anyone like Pooh?

Was clearing up things yesterday, and found a little Pooh notebook. I used to write my body measurements in there, to remind me of my progress in losing weight. I'm so obsessed witht the slimness thingy. I was aiming something unachievable target. It's so unhealthy. I use that note book during my first year, when i'm staying in hostel. Both of my roommates are very thin, and they still wanna lose weight. I got influenced, and too trying to lose weight. It's not about being healthy, it's about acceptance, by peers. Weird, it happened during my uni life, not when in my secondary life. So it was kinda like competence, who will drop one dress size per month. As usual, i can't do it. I'm too in to food! I can't stand not eating a meal! Both of them can skip lunch and dinner, and only drink water. Of coz, they lose weight quite fast, and me still the same old me. Things get worst when friends start telling me I gained some weight. I'm unhappy during that time. Luckily, I got a few friends that point out to me, it's not about thiness, it's about losing weight healthily. So we make it a ritual, that go to walk everyday. Though i do not lose weight much, but I do feel better about myself. At least I'm in control then.

Now, i still make it a habit to exercise when i got the time. Exercise makes me feel GOOD! Hope this will do the same to all my girls' friend.

Same old story

I'm back in KL in the afternoon, and found out there had been rats in my place! There's rat pooh everywhere! Used my whole afternoon trying to clean up the whole place, and found it rather disgusting. Have to find a wat to eliminate them, if not, i can't sleep! Why do they have to choose this house? Can't they go somewhere else? Make my life miserable.

Back to KL early to try to do some of my thesis. I've relaxed for some time, so need to work harder. BUT I'm just too lazy! Just can't concentrate on doing it. Need to force myself to do it. My future depend on it. Need to work hard!

This is Great!

Met Sze this afternoon and have some chat. Feel good meeting back some old friends. Got some update of some friends: heard yuan is doing her CLP now. Sigh, some of my friends have got their degree and working now, and I still got another year to study. Sigh. People start earning money, i'm still spending. What to do. I started slow. so have to study longer. Anyway, i can still enjoy the life as a student, haha.

I did notice something when i'm listening to the radio. They only play pop songs, and everyday we are bombarded with loads of pop songs. Why is it like that? If a song is good, it should stay in the chart for years, but how come there's loads of pop songs coming out everyday? We human love new things. Artists have to release an album frequently so that we remember them, if not they can't earn much. It's the nature of it. People will just move on to newer things and start forgeting the old ones, eventhough they're good as gold. It's our nature. Just hope that this is not the same with relationship. That's why can see that couples which have been together for quite some time might break up. Their reason is too bored, nothing to do already with the current guy/girl. This is just so sad.

Another day in Jusco

I will never go to shopping malls during holidays or weekends. There's way too much people on that time, and it's just so hard to find a parking space! But I had to go to Jusco Ipoh (again) today, to get something. Me and Lucas spent more than 15 minutes to search for a parking space, and the weather it's just so hot! He's unhappy, but I really need to get that stuff. We went to further to park in the end.

I've been following the Tsunami news everyday, hoping there will be some good news. Feel so sad when I see the befor and after satellite photo of Banda Aceh. It's totally ruined. The people are suffering there. I just hope there would be no more after shock. I've read in newspaper today that they've found a survivor under the wreckages today, and the man is in good health. I suppose this can be consider a good news, after so much people had lost their lives.

Wanna come to my room?

It's been a very busy day. I've tried to fix my dad's comp until 6 this morning. Although still not that perfect, at least it's few worms less. It's quite old, luckily the cd-rom still functioning!

Went shopping in the 1 and only Jusco in Ipoh with my mum, and i hand-picked loads of blouses for her. She's just too lazy to pick her own clothes! Me and my sister just picked a lot for her to try until she can no longer stand us 2 and ask to go home. I feel quite happy today, coz I'm doing my favourite thing, which is shopping!

I've found some post cards that some of my friends mail to me when they are having holiday abroad. Found it when i'm cleaning my room just now. So much memories flooded back. Feel very happy coz they remember me eventhough they're holidaying. I do feel that you will have lesser and lesser friends when you grow older. But for me, a few good friends is more that enough. You can count on them when you have problems, can share your happiness with them. I'm grateful that i have this kind of friends.

I threw a lot of things! Recycled a lot of papers. Now my room is wuite empty. Hope it stay that way until i buy new things. haha. I just can't stop shopping!

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year! Happy 2005! Just back from KL, now resting in hometown. Very happy, watched Kung Fu by Stephen Chow this evening (thanks to Sze for the tickets), it's very funny, though the ratings not that good. The lead actress looks just like Cecillia Chung! So young and pretty. The movie is just for a good laugh lar, but have to say the computer effects not that good. Maybe his next movie will be better.

Happy 2005 again! Hope this year will be a better year. May every plans of mine will be smooth ahead.